The moment he confessed the truth that he is seeing someone else, I didn't feel a thing. My heart was so numb but my body was trembling horribly. Maybe the truth just haven't sink in yet. Everything was so well planned. I felt stupid for not noticing all along.
I just couldn't sleep alone that night. At 3a.m in the morning I drove over to June's place so that I have her to accompany me to bed. The conversation on the phone with him rewinds non-stop by itself in my head like a recorder. It was the last thing I think about when I go to bed and the first thing when I wake up.

I am like a prisoner to myself. I lock myself up in a corner and I can't seem to find my way out. I feel lost. Sometimes I feel tired. Tired of pretending that I am alright. But at the end of the day, I will collapse on my bed, crying myself to sleep.

It hurts. The feeling is so terrible. I don't mind breaking up but I don't like going through the feeling of being cheated on. I don't understand how can you stop loving a person in just one night? How can you love two person equally a lot? How could you do this to me? Don't you even care how I feel? What happened to all the promises you made?
Do you even care when I love you so much?
Do you know how it feels like loving someone who is in the rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know that your heart has changed?

So many questions in my head with no answers. Nil.

It made me felt like I'm just another forgotten girl in the fairytale.
You were so selfish..just so selfish.